Personal Testimony: Lost & Stumbling, Found by a Solid Rock

“So this is what the Sovereign LORD says: ‘See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation; the one who relies on it will never be stricken with panic.’ ” Isaiah 28:16 NIV

Lukeisha H. CarrI believe testimonies of how The Lord brought you out or keeps you through the hard times, would be a wonderful addition to the LuKeisha Carr Ministries International website. Not only does hearing one another’s testimony inspire you to keep moving forward and not give up, but Revelation 12:11 says, “…they overcame him [satan] by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony…” What this says is that every time you open your heart to share a heartfelt experience of how Christ lifted you, or how God’s hand was upon your life in tough situations, you win one for Team Christ! You may only have one, or many. You can witness about something that helped you through a day at work, or an experience that was an outright miracle. No matter the size of the victory it’s a slam dunk! So, I’d like to be the first to give you a peek into my journey of being a lost prodigal daughter of God who found herself stumbling in the dark, but now deeply grateful that during those days, when I finally called upon The Father, He reached out to me through a Solid Rock!

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Starting in 2006, my life hit a downhill spiral. In an in-between stage of life, feeling like an uprooted tree laying across the sidewalk, wondering who I was, where I belonged or why I was here; for I’m just in the way. Everything I depended on had proved itself shoddy and undependable, and was quickly crumbling, falling through my fingers like sand in an hour glass. I had lost control over my life. As my hands were emptied of those things, I turned to food and alcohol trying very hard to calm my nerves, but only succeeded at gaining forty pounds. Then, abruptly returned to the still painful reality when the effects of my drinks wore off. There was a brokenness in me that left me feeling like no one would ever want me because something was wrong with me. More and more, with the help of sleep aids, sleeping until the pain went away became one of my escapes. Eventually along came thoughts of ending it all the most painless way I could find; if only I could sleep forever. The world just seemed to not need or want me, and burdens were too heavy to bare. It all left me feeling like I was being overtaken by deep waves of the sea; too strong for me to the point where I was just ready to give up and let the water fill in all the emptiness I felt.

“Taste and see that the Lord is good! How blessed is the one who takes shelter in him!” Psalm 34:8 NET

After about five years of suffering in this way, at varying levels, I began to realize that nothing was working, and no one could help. That’s when I sincerely called out to God, thinking He must know what’s happening to me. Give Him a try. And, once I did, He began to change my life in ways I could have never imagined as a relationship with Him was built and maintained through Jesus.

“In my distress I called to the Lord; I cried to my God for help. 

From His temple He heard my voice; my cry came before Him, into His ears. Psalm 18:6 NIV

He reached down from on high and took hold of me; He drew me out of deep waters.” Psalm 18:16 NIV

As our loving Father began to pull me out, He helped me to realize that I am never alone, because I am His daughter, whom He loves forever. Shortly after, I no longer experienced being ambushed by attacks of anxiety, like I had once in Macy’s department store while shopping for shoes, one of my favorite activities. And, other times on trains, buses, or simply walking on a warm sunny day not making it more than a block away from home. His grace and mercy, His enduring and patient love that He poured into me, protected me from sinking much lower than the low I was already in at that time.

When I didn’t understand anything about myself, God’s unlimited understanding began to smother the volcano inside of me that was ready to erupt at others at any time which could’ve landed me in a room of cement walls & bars, as I found myself quickly on the defense both verbally, and at times very temptingly, physically. The burning fires of fury weren’t targeted just at others, but also at myself. The Lord lovingly explained to me that I am human. Mistakes made, even those large enough to offend Him that I confessed were behind me. I am forgiven, there was no need to hate who I was, so I can forgive myself.

It’s been a wonderful transformational journey to gain the mind of Christ, as God’s Son shines upon my once clouded mind, which had me hearing and seeing ugly misconceptions about who I was and what I was capable of. Now, I write this today, with joy in my heart, because God loves me, with a love like no one else could give. When I couldn’t love myself, He loved me. When I felt I didn’t deserve to be liked, much less loved, God loved me. His Love manifested in various ways, showing me, teaching me, helping me to want to be what He made me to be. He continually reveals what He placed within me upon my creation. Now, though just a few years back I wanted to die, Father God’s presence, peace, and love in my life daily encourages me to LIVE… to LIVE out my life, because He designed it to be so much better than my imagination could ever fathom!

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As one who has experienced struggles on the inside, when no one could see them from the outside, I have been gifted a Divine inspiration and hope to share all God’s done for me.  And, so Cornerstone Solid Hope has been birthed with the hopes of sharing the wonders of His enduring mercy and grace, and the ways He loves us back to a life of restoration, no matter what we’ve done or experienced in the past.

My prayer for you, is for you to be inspired to never give up, to be encouraged, and “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.” Romans 15:13 (ESV) through Jesus’ Name.  Amen.

 

Would you like to submit a testimony?

If so, please submit one through our Overcome by the Word of Your Testimony page.  Please keep it under 1,000 characters. We’d love to hear from you!  And, may God Bless you mightily!

 

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